Chapter 1
     Life is so fresh, so new. I never thought that living would be so wonderful. I just want to enjoy myself and have fun and play games. I love my human mama so much. She plays with me all the time and has given me others of my kind to snuggle with. I know I was created for something special, but I haven’t figured out what it is yet.. I trust it will be revealed to me when the time is right. For now, it’s all about enjoying myself. And I intend to!

Chapter 2
     My first venture into this world was so much fun I wanted to see if there are others out there who are just as loving. I wish I was with my first mama again. This human doesn’t really understand what I need. I am all alone and all she does is stare at me. She hardly touches me and I am so lonely. There is nothing to do and I am so bored. Maybe this was a mistake…

Chapter 3
     A wise animal at the between place explained to me that I cannot base living just on two experiences, so I came back again. This human isn’t so bad. I have a buddy and we get to come out every so often. The food stinks, but it is food. I hope I didn’t make the wrong decision to keep coming back.

Chapter 4
     I can’t stop crying inside. This time I was chosen to be a mother, but I am not even allowed to mother them like I know I could. I am trapped in a tiny cage, forced to mate over and over, and just when I think I will get to raise my babies, they are snatched away from me. I can hear them crying in a room close to mine. Every so often I will hear one of my babies scream and then silence. And it is not just me and my babies. There are other mothers here forced to do the same thing. Oh God, how can this be allowed to happen? Why won’t they take me instead?

Chapter 5
Just when I didn’t think it could get worse…
     This life has led me to a human who has taken in too many of my kind. I have to fight for every scrap of food. I am constantly sick from the stench of our cages, cages that are so crowded I can rarely find a spot where I can sleep in peace. I get to raise my babies this time, but there are too many now and I know that they are not going to get the life I want for them. I hope this life ends soon. I wish I could see my very first human mama again. She was so nice. Thinking of her is the only reason I am still sane.

Chapter 5, part 2
     After what seemed to be an eternity, an eternity of fighting for everything, even simple space, an eternity of constant torture, watching as others starved to death, or were killed for their food or space, something happened to rekindle my faith in the humans.
     One day, when I felt so ready to just let myself die, a new noise woke me up. Our cages were taken outside. Oh, it has been so long since I breathed fresh air or seen the sky. A bunch of humans were taking us away from this horror house. We had been rescued!
     The humans separated us by gender. (And that boy thought he could just have his way with me any time he liked for the rest of my life. Who is the master now.) I get to stay in a much bigger cage now with only a few other girls. I had one final litter since I was pregnant when this happened, a litter I have in peace, a litter I raised the way I knew I could, the way nature meant. After I finally weaned them, I gave them each a kiss, and then they were on their way to their new humans, humans I feel even I could trust. The human who helped rescue me has decided to keep me and I am grateful.
     I think I want to try and find my first human again after this life.

Chapter 6
     I haven’t been keeping a journal like I used to. It has been several lifetimes since I last wrote. Every chance I get, I am searching for my human. Each new lifetime, I actually get a little closer. I have learned little things with each new home, but I feel like my first human needs me very soon. I have made friends with others who have strings they can pull, and they have agreed to help arrange it so my next lifetime will be with my human again. I hope I will be able to return the favors some day, if not to them, then to others searching for their forever human mommies and daddies. I am excited, but for now I am in a home that is pretty nice. One of my roommates is actually a forever girl to this human mommy. The human doesn’t understand why she doesn’t get the same love and attention from me as from her forever girl, but I know it is because I am not this human’s forever girl. When my time here is done, I shall definitely give her a kiss to thank her for keeping me, but then I will be off to be with my forever human once again.

Chapter 7
     This is it. This is when I am to be with my forever human, the one who just happens to be my first human, once again. I thought maybe I was going to be side tracked again, because I was adopted out to a different human at first, but that lasted all of a week. Oh! Look, look! There she is. She came to pick me up. She doesn’t realize it is me again, it has been so long, and I look so different. I am not letting her get away though. She has a cage of others to choose from, and she is picking up each one, but no one is acting interested. They know I am meant to go with her. Ooo, somehow I think she knows. She keeps coming back to me. And now she has said the magic words… “this girl is coming home with me, for sure.”
     Now I know why I was felt drawn to her again. She desperately needs me. I can feel in her a depression eating away at her. One very similar to what I once felt. Like no one cares, like there is no way out of the black hole that she feels she is in. I am going to change all of that simply by being there for her. Already I know it is working, I can feel her emotions changing ever so slightly, and that is just from finding me.

A Final Chapter
     I am going to take a break from life on earth now. My job there with my forever mama was a complete success. Every time she thought of me during the day, I was able to bring her farther away from the edge of the black hole that threatened to swallow her. She even got help from other humans. As I left my body this time, my parting gift to her was an infusion of my emotional strength into her being. We will always be a part of each other, now. I will be able to help more special girls find her, because I know there are more out there searching for her. I have already helped the one who is to teach her a little about trust and patience find her.
     Perhaps one day I will go back and live with my forever mama again. I now know how to arrange it so that it can happen. But for now, I will help others find their way, both to this resting between place, and to their forever human. And I will continue to watch over my mama, curling up with her as she sleeps, tickling her dreams with my whiskers just to watch her smile.

- Melissa King